My Obsession with being "Normal"

In my yoga class last night, I talked about my obsession with being normal again after my 2016 experience with oral cancer and reconstruction.

In my altered state of awareness, steeped in high anxiety, the first thing I said to everyone…over and over and OVER again, (my family, doctors, the visiting nurses at home, co-workers, friends, probably even the mailman),

“Will I be normal again?”

Everyone said yes, but I didn’t believe them. I knew there was no such thing for me anymore.

But what I didn’t know at the time, and what took me months or maybe a year to realize, is what I really was asking was,

“Will others accept me and love me as I am?”

A limited belief I’ve had for much longer than just my experience with cancer.

And where my journey led me to was this…

I get to be uniquely me without the need any longer to “fit in”.

I get to accept myself and love myself for exactly who I am in this very moment… and I get to choose my experience with myself as well as those around me.

I realized there is something so much more freeing then “being normal”.

And it’s a beauty-full and amazing space to Be.

"If you are always trying to be normal you will never know how amazing you can be."

-- Maya Angelou

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